15 August 2008

Flying off again...

I don't know when I'll get a chance to check emails and blogs, for a while. Dad was readmitted to Palliative care a week ago, and I have just had word that the Doctors don't expect him to last much longer. I am flying up on the first available flight tomorrow, until I don't know when.

Dad being as tough as he is, he could yet prove them wrong, and we have already said our goodbyes, but I really want - I really need - to be there. For myself. And for Mum.

Funny how when I am there with him, I can let him go and understand that he wants to go. And I'm OK with that. There are still tears, but laughter as well.

But when I am home here, there is no laughter and no feeling of wanting to let go. He's my Dad! I can't imagine the world without him. The tears are all pain. And I hurt, even as I am writing this.

So I need to be there, for him, for me, for my emotional sanity.

Please remember us in your prayers - that we all find the strength we need to face this.

Hugs to you all, and thanks for your support.

...Lindi x

6 comments:

  1. Go with our love, Lindi. It's important that you be there with your Dad and he will be glad you've come to hold his hand. Wish I could take the pain from you, but I can't so I will be praying that you will know God's closeness as he walks with you. Love, Di

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  2. I am sorry. Have a safe trip and know that your and yours are in my family's prayers. God bless.

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  3. Lindi, my thoughts and my prayers are with you and your family. God bless.

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  4. Lindi, I would do exactly the same...He's your Dad!!
    You go girl...take care, laugh, cry and just be still together.
    Will keep you in my prayers.
    Take care xxx
    Robyn :c)

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  5. Dear Lindi,
    I will be praying for you and yours. I cant begin to understand the pain that must come with a time like you are experiencing.
    God bless,
    Rosalie.

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  6. You and your family will be in my prayers. I know the pain you're experiencing as I lost my dad just a month ago. I hope your family is as strong a support system as mine was and continues to be. God bless.

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