I don't know when I'll get a chance to check emails and blogs, for a while. Dad was readmitted to Palliative care a week ago, and I have just had word that the Doctors don't expect him to last much longer. I am flying up on the first available flight tomorrow, until I don't know when.
Dad being as tough as he is, he could yet prove them wrong, and we have already said our goodbyes, but I really want - I really need - to be there. For myself. And for Mum.
Funny how when I am there with him, I can let him go and understand that he wants to go. And I'm OK with that. There are still tears, but laughter as well.
But when I am home here, there is no laughter and no feeling of wanting to let go. He's my Dad! I can't imagine the world without him. The tears are all pain. And I hurt, even as I am writing this.
So I need to be there, for him, for me, for my emotional sanity.
Please remember us in your prayers - that we all find the strength we need to face this.
Hugs to you all, and thanks for your support.
...Lindi x
15 August 2008
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Go with our love, Lindi. It's important that you be there with your Dad and he will be glad you've come to hold his hand. Wish I could take the pain from you, but I can't so I will be praying that you will know God's closeness as he walks with you. Love, Di
ReplyDeleteI am sorry. Have a safe trip and know that your and yours are in my family's prayers. God bless.
ReplyDeleteLindi, my thoughts and my prayers are with you and your family. God bless.
ReplyDeleteLindi, I would do exactly the same...He's your Dad!!
ReplyDeleteYou go girl...take care, laugh, cry and just be still together.
Will keep you in my prayers.
Take care xxx
Robyn :c)
Dear Lindi,
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for you and yours. I cant begin to understand the pain that must come with a time like you are experiencing.
God bless,
Rosalie.
You and your family will be in my prayers. I know the pain you're experiencing as I lost my dad just a month ago. I hope your family is as strong a support system as mine was and continues to be. God bless.
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